well thats what usually happens to me, thats what happens with inspiration, but when its forgotten..you're back to square one. Except for now.
There was no convention i went to lately. I've been doing everything almost the same as always. But i've been reading, thought provoking books, and fyi books take time to read, multiple days,you have to digest books, think about them, they stay on your mind till after you've turned off the light. I read, Jesus Wants to Save Christians, by Rob Bell. And i read Blue Like Jazz by Donald Miller, Now I'm reading Velvet Elvis by Rob Bell and First Things First. And these books they fill my mind with questions, i feel like there is a slow change going on.
My mind is slowly altering its thoughts, i can't focus so much on daydreams and petty plans anymore. I can't. Instead i'm thinking, what if. What if i spoke up today. What if i Did something extreme and out of character, what if i took a challange no one expects. What if i did something totally cool and started something brand new, that has a huge impact on so many. And then How? How will i make a miracle? How do i teach someone without selling them Jesus like he's a commodity. How do I live my life like no ones watching. And still know that they are out of the corners of their eyes.
I hate earthquake changes. Dramatic changes. But a slow change like the groud soaking up puddles. Right now i'm the ground. and i'm taking in the information of a puddle. I'm learning all this and its nourishing me. Its changing my dead grass to green, its giving a whole new season of life to me. Its amazing. I love this feeling. I'm the ground and there is a flood of puddles to take in in this life. And i can't wait for the days to make these slow changes.
I'm the ground and i'm soaking up the puddles.
