Beauty.

I think of beauty often, as a student in high school I am surrounded by girls on a quest to be beautiful. But they find beauty in superficial things. I am not interested in skin deep things, rather the beauty inside, I would like to show that to girls, that beauty is percieved by what is on the inside, that shines through the skin, beauty is in your character, in your heart.

1 Peter 3:3-4

"Do not let your adornment be merely outward- arranging of the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel,- rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God."

I sent this verse to some of my friends last saturday, as I was getting ready for the prom. As I was clothing myself in a lovely ball gown, putting on gold jewelry, placing flowers in my curled hair. I wanted to send out a reminder that although I may look beautiful on the outside that day, that my true beauty is on the inside, and I cannot forget this.

As the day went on I was told I was beautiful countless times. And I felt beautiful. I saw so many fancy dresses and done-up hair at the prom, and i still saw so much searching, and unhappiness. So much discontent.

So how do we gain beauty? Where does it grow? I daily strive to find beauty in honesty, in having a joyful heart, in reality, but really beauty is in God, and if with all i am, i'm seeking God, He will transfrorm my disformed heart into beauty, into purity.

A co-worker of mine prays for me and almost everyone he knows saying the verse, "Blessed are the Pure in heart, for they shall see God." I pray this for myself, for i want to see God too. Having a pure heart is a beautiful thing.

Overall, beauty is within, it is who you are when no one is looking, it is your thoughts, your emotions, your heart. Do you think it's beautiful?

Indifference

"The opposite of Love is not hate, but indifference." - C.S. Lewis

Do you know the deffinition to indifference? I looked it up and according to dictionary.com it means this: 1. Lack of intrest, or concern. 2. unimportance 3. mediocre quality, mediocrity.
The Antynyms for this word: eagerness, responsiveness.

My best friend shared this quote with me the other day, and it started a wave in me. An awareness of the carelessness of the current world and myself , I couldn't count how many times i hear, " I don't care," or " it doesn't matter to me," in a day. And even though phrases like this are used in response to choosing a resturaunt to eat at and what color your mom is painting the walls in her bathroom. Does that matter?

But i realized that this innocent phrases aren't just used in situations like this, they carry over to bigger things. The other day I had a conversation with a co-worker, about the future of the world being carried out by the kids we work with and his response was, "i just stopped careing." But shouldn't we care?

Where do we draw the line, when do we stop caring, and when do we actually care enough, to make something happen. I haven't figured it out yet.

If God is Love, and the opposite is indifference, lack of interest or concern, i don't want to be the opposite, we are made to love.

"And above all things have feverent love for one another, for love will cover a multitude of sins." 1 Peter 4:8, Proverbs 10:12

I want that deep love God has for us, an eager, a responsive Love. And that's the kind of love i want to give.